Thursday, March 4, 2010

Is this a curse?

It is a feeling/impressing/kind of story I wanted to write for a long time already. And thought about it over and over again, considered at the beginning very interesting, then boring and at the end completely erased from my writing priority list. But maybe the time has come to share my poor experience. As shortly as possible, I hope.
For me, one of the most disgraceful experience is to answer this kind of questions: "Really, you were born in Eastern Europe? Cannot believe it?" Most part of the people never been there, have a completely distorted image - the same for other part of the world. I could understand the reasons as well of this misunderstanding as many of the countries from this part of Europe do not have any coherent strategy of branding or the first contact with these country is very bad - bureaucracy, corruption, rude behaviors. But, being born in a certain country is just an occurrence.
Second, and the most boring part of the story is when you have to do a kind of public testimony of "how was then, during the communism". Of course, it is interesting to hear and many of my dialogue partners never had the occasion to know directly from the source these information. But, on the other side, for me, it is simply an occasion to remember facts and events I do not want to remember any more. Mostly when your dialogue partner is trying to convince you that, from a certain level, this kind of ideology was, maybe good.
At the end of the discussion, what I feel is that, in fact, our worlds are different and I have to live with this. In the same time, it is an acknowledgement of the fact that, in very small details, between me and this world there are only purely accidental historical connections. I can speak some "rare" languages, I know the history and the geography as well as the literature. My degree of representativity is extremely low, if not non-existent.

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